Positively positive Pollyanna meets nearly negative Nancy. Sounds like a tongue twister, right? How many of you reading this jump from being positive to negative and back again, daily, hourly or even more often than that? I have come to the conclusion that it doesn’t necessarily mean I am crazy. I mean, we all know that what we focus on is what we get. We all know to focus on the positive and good and not the negative and bad. It’s easy right? We all know of people who are negative and drain our energy. We all know of others who seem to be positive and upbeat all the time. For most of us I suspect the truth is somewhere in between.

It’s normal to worry about stuff. Money, our health, family and loved ones, work, and the other stresses that are part of being an adult, even being a child, being human. It’s when that is all we focus on that we get into trouble. We start to get anxious, depressed, and sick as our body manifests our worry in different ways.

We need to find a way to release the negativity and the worry and focus on a happy future, a happy outcome. The more we focus on this the more likely it is to occur. It is hard to do this. For some of us. There is no one easy answer. It may be meditation, exercise, relaxation or other practical and tangible way we can return our focus to the good, the positive.

One expression we are all familiar with is ‘fake it til we make it’. For me this is about focusing on and picturing and believing in an outcome, before we even can imagine how it will happen. Just know it will happen and act like it already has. I have no idea how I will mend my relationships with my children, especially my older two, but I do believe it is possible. The trick here for me is not to dwell on what is negative about my relationship with my children or rather lack of, as that will only bring me ill health, but to focus on a happy outcome, where I am in contact with each of them, as individual as they are, and am in their lives in some way. To hear all about their lives, loves, passions, the good and the bad.

My business, my natural health business that incorporates many healing modalities. It is in its infancy now, but I believe it will be our main source of income one day, allowing us to work from here and to travel and visit family, loved ones, new places, bringing a wealth and abundance to us and our families. Again I don’t know how, but I am thankful and grateful this will happen one day. Sometimes I get discouraged and I forget what it looks like, how it will happen. I know this just means it is further away. If I can’t see it clearly how can the universe gift me with what I want?

It’s like this house, our beautiful home, and my wonderful partner. I had no idea how I would ever find someone, or ever have my own home. I kept believing each of these things were possible. I didn’t give up on either, though I didn’t know how they would happen. No one was more surprised than me when Pete and I became Pete and I and when we found this home, in a town we had never considered. Pete and I had been mates for years before we became more than that. It wasn’t something we planned or thought of. Boorowa was a place our friend brought us to, and we fell in love with it. Neither of these things would have happened if I hadn’t believed it possible.

I am not saying it is easy. It is easier to forget to be positive. It is easy to be negative and to give up. That is not an option for me though. When I find myself forgetting to be positive and thankful, I look at the photos of my kids. I get out my crystals, I diffuse some uplifting and positive essential oils, and I smile.  I go outside. I walk, I garden, I play loud music, I write. I remember all the good that is already in my life, all that has brought me on my journey thus far. I look forward to the future.

Take the time to be kind to yourself. Forgive yourself. Dwell on the positive. Be grateful, be thankful. Smile. Life is wonderful.