Trigger warning…no seriously…I don’t like that phrase as I just get on with stuff, but I do understand it. Facebook showed me a photo of three women I used to call friends, close friends. There was no great falling out, or even a point in time I can pinpoint where we drifted apart. An example of when life just happens. One day there were a network of wonderful women friends, the next time I looked up, I was falling apart, falling into addictions, and losing my children. My friends, also mothers, and wives, were probably suffering as much as I, and we all just had no idea how to reach out, to each other, or professionals.

Parents don’t suddenly have it all together, once our beautiful babies arrive. We all struggle – television portrays it differently, but in a lot of cases we don’t cope. We don’t all have a support network.

I admire families and friends who manage to stay together and keep in touch. I remember family and friends fondly. I’m grateful for all the time spent with those who matter. There’s that saying, about wishing I knew then what I know now…Ironic, that now I sit here and realise how I should have gone about things, way back then.

For others like me – don’t be too hard on yourself. We do the best we can with the information available to us at the time. The best thing – tomorrow is the start of a brand new day. I love my life’s journey, I’d have liked longer with those I love, but I have to trust that everything happens for a reason. Happy October everyone.