When I was a teenager, I was a little unusual. I remember wanting to be a hermit with forty-six cats when I grew up. I mean, I did go out with friends and to parties, but even back then I yearned for a simple life, with no drama or complications. Little did I know that a lot of being an adult is about navigating dramas and other people’s expectations.

Fast forward nearly forty years. I can’t believe it’s been that long since I was in high school. That just doesn’t make sense to me. When did those years gallop by and what have they left in their wake?

I find more and more these days, that I yearn for peace and quiet. It’s one of the reasons why we were hoping to move. Seems the universe had other ideas.

To make matters worse, the panic attacks I experience in crowded spaces like shopping centres or restaurants, have returned. I’m sure that’s only a temporary glitch, as I navigate the mine field of finding a job, and appropriate clothes to wear to attend interviews. The next step will be to manage the unmanageable.

Don’t misunderstand me, I love our property. It’s just that maintaining it is tricky. There’s so much to learn and do, and while you tube is a wonderful resource it doesn’t actually tell me where to buy stuff, and how to physically get the tasks done.

It’s not that I am whinging, I am internally chuckling at the irony of the time wasted, waiting for the property to sell, waiting to find our new home. Back and forth and now forward to where we find ourselves.

Each day is an adventure. Winter makes it a little more challenging, as does having most of our possessions in a storage shed two and a half hours drive away. We will bring it all back, over the next month and re-create our home here.

Today’s gratitude is that we have the opportunity to make this work, albeit a little differently than we had planned. Today’s intention setting involves succeeding, staying motivated and positive and finding new ways to solve old problems.

Happy Hump Day!